There are few key indicators that let you know if you are a true Kabbalah student. In other words, do you only talk the talk or do you also walk the walk.
You will know if you are a true student of this ancient, all-powerful wisdom if:
1. You create and “see” unity when everyone else sees separation and space.
2. You feel like quitting monthly, daily, weekly or hourly but you resist and let go of this impulse. You persist onwards, appreciating all that you have received from this wisdom over the nasty annoyances that always confront you.
3. You have doubts about your teacher or the Centre and experience strange thoughts, but you are able to separate this negative onslaught of consciousness from the Opponent from your true self. As Rav Ashlag says, we are not here to defeat the Adversary or negative thoughts. We are here only to create a space between these thoughts and our true self. We are in this world to recognize and identify the source of all negative thoughts and therefore, NOT react to them. The only reason we ever react is because we do not see that it’s the Adversary, our Opponent, that is pulling our reactive strings. The only reason we get angry with others is because we do not see the Adversary is also pulling their string. If we really saw the Opponent forcing this other person to treat us so badly, we would never, ever get angry at another person again. It’s all about identifying the Opponent. If that’s what you strive for, you are a true student.
4. The prayers drive you nuts but you connect anyway because you know the outcome will be an influx of positive energy into your life…even if that energy cleanses you first before warming you with pleasure.
5. You think everyone around you is nuts for dancing and jumping up and down at a Kabbalah event after hours and hours of prayer-connection. You’d rather be watching a movie or hanging out and chillin some place else instead of doing the connection with all of these Israelis, South Americans, Europeans, Canadians, Asians, and Americans.
6. You start letting go of that stupid guilt that arises when you missed or forgot to do a small action, or you showed up late. You begin to realize, it’s not about the ritual or action, but rather, it’s about our consciousness behind the action. Guilt is religion. Appreciation for our tools and a sincere effort to use them to change ourselves is Kabbalah. Even when we are late or forgot.
7. You feel unappreciated, you want more attention at the Kabbalah Centre, and you think you know best how to share Kabbalah with the world. Then you let all of those feelings go because you realize that you are here to simply connect to the Light to benefit yourself and your loved ones first and foremost. We are not here to become popular or praised or to have our ego stroked. We are here to diminish our ego so that we can enrich and enhance our connection to the Light even more. Therefore, when we are feeling lonely and unrecognized and pissed, we are now HAPPY because it’s yet another opportunity to let our ego get smashed. Which means more Light. Which is the sole purpose of why we want Kabbalah in our life.
Please feel free to post your own suggestions below on how to know if you are a true Kabbalah Student.