David & Miriam Leon:
About 4 and ½ years ago, my wife Miriam was pregnant with our third child. Naturally we were happy and excited, like all expecting parents are. In the 8th week of her pregnancy, we went for her first ultrasound test, which is the first indication of what is going on. I was in the room with Miriam as the Doctor was conducting the test. We both noticed that she was exceptionally quiet and serious-looking, and we felt uncomfortable.
After about an hour, the Doctor excused herself. She came back into the room after a long interval and addressed us, saying she had bad news. The progress of the fetus was abnormal, specifically the arms, legs, and neck, which were not developing properly. Based on her professional experience (which was extensive), the best-case scenario was that our child would be born with Downs Syndrome, and the worst-case she didn’t want to mention.
She needed to conduct a further test to determine more facts. The test would give a greater picture of the situation, but it was not without risk. There was a small probability that the intrusive needle used could puncture the fetus and fatally damage it.
At this time I remembered something that happened on our way into the office. Walking through the parking lot we passed a woman driving by in a car who waved to us. I don’t know why, but I asked Miriam if she was pregnant. “No”, she told me, “she underwent an amniocentesis and lost her baby.” This was the test they now wanted Miriam to undergo.
After studying Kabbalah all of these years with Rav Berg, I have developed an appreciation for the interconnectedness of events. I thought about this woman we met, and why I happened to ask Miriam if she was pregnant. I felt at that instant that it was a message and I said as much to my wife. Immediately I wanted to call my Teacher, Abe Hardoon, and seek his advice in the matter.
While I was telling Miriam of my sensation, the Doctor had been preparing the instrument for the test. As she walked into the office, we told her that we would not undergo the test. She was surprised, and calmly explained why the test was essential. We got ready to leave. She sensed our decision, and implored us to come back every two weeks to watch the progress. It would be another three months before they could conduct another conclusive test, and she wanted to monitor the baby in the interim. I told her we would be back in three months.
When we arrived home, I spoke with my friend and teacher, Rabbi Abe Hardoon. He told me to use the tools of Kabbalah, and to remember one of the main points of Kabbalah – mind over matter is possible.
From that point on, we devoted ourselves to using the tools of Kabbalah, primarily the scanning of the Zohar. I would scan the Zohar every night beginning at midnight, for at least two-three hours. During the workday, whenever I had a moment, I would scan. One particular portion I used frequently was Tazria, in which Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai (author of the Zohar), speaks about the birthing process and the secrets involved in it.
I want to stress that this was a difficult time for us, and my emotions ran back and forth in great extremes. There were times I was scanning and thinking –‘how is staring at a piece of paper going to change my child’s body.’ Then in the next thought, I would think of Rabbi Shimon, and as I was scanning, I would meditate on him, imploring him to help me.
Three months went by and we went for our meeting with the Doctor. Once there, the Doctor took us in right away, and spent a long, quiet hour examining Miriam.
After a long time leaving us alone in the room, she came in and simply said, “I’m always happy to give good news. The baby is completely healthy.”